Two years after graduating the sergeant came knocking on my door…..


He did not sign up for this. He signed up for making a difference in the world. He signed up because of his deep rooted patriotism and desire to serve and protect his community and his country. When he graduated, his trainer said that he had never even drawn his gun. He’d certainly never been drawn down on! I was told we never speak of accidents or shootings. It was as though I would jinx the whole thing. I was told I didn’t need to know, because it would never happen.
Two years after graduating the sergeant came knocking on my door. By the grace of God my husband was alive but I was not prepared. I was so shocked and caught off guard.
This will be our ninth regimental funeral. Nope, we did not sign up for this.
When he was diagnosed with PTSD 18 years ago, we had no clue what that meant. Now I do. I know that going to this funeral will trigger him and we will spend the next three weeks getting him back on track. We already have an appointment made with the therapist. But this is what we do to honour those who fall. The esprit de corps and camaraderie that will fill the streets on Tuesday will remain with us and keep us going.
I’m so grateful to the people who’ve reached out to us to ask if we’re ok. We don’t have to justify our grief to them. They don’t ask us if we knew Cst. Beckett. They know it’s irrelevant. They’re all brothers and sisters and they all mourn each other equally. Hopefully this will be the last regimental funeral we will ever have to attend.

From a member of our admin team here at Families of the RCMP for PTSD Awareness


One thought on “Two years after graduating the sergeant came knocking on my door…..

  1. Although this website is difficult to see.and read ;it is very timely and very much needed for awareness of the impact responding to the many varied community emergencies have on first responders. As a nurse ,I have.been so grateful and relieved when I needed a police officer to help me keep everyone safe in a crisis .Thank you for the many times in my 42 years of nursing so far,for keeping me safe and able to do my job in caring for my pts/clients and their families in the varied acute and community nursing positions I have held.over the years.As one of my seniors would tell me every nursing visit-“there you are,polishing your halo again.”I’m so pleased that I have the opportunity to and extend my appreciation for the very difficult /dangerous job you do everyday with dignity and respect for everyone.Gail Parks

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