After more than a decade of struggling through PTSD I’m saying yes to family and life


Ok friends and family……after 16 years I have decided to take medical retirement from the RCMP.

I realize I should hang my head in shame because I’m clearly not strong enough physically and mentally for the job anymore but screw that, I’m a survivor!!!!!!

After more than a decade of struggling through PTSD and giving birth to 4 children in 4.5 years I’m saying yes to family and life!!!!!!!

I want to pay honour to my career with the RCMP. Things were not perfect in the organization but I believe that things are/will get better.

I have literally seen it all.

I’ve seen my life flash before my eyes,

I’ve made quick calls home on my way to violent gun calls,

I’ve seen the most evil things.

I’ve run toward what everyone else was running away from.

I’ve also seen human kindness and generosity in the most extravagant ways.

I believe I served the Lord as law enforcement for the most vulnerable, broken people and I will continue to do that with the Field of Faith Foundation.

Thank you for everyone who has supported me mainly His worship Les Alm and my momma Linda Bakke-Alm. You guys are bar none the best parents ever!!!

Thank you to my husband Troy Idler who has supported me through this very tumultuous decision making period.

Thank you to my children for patiently waiting for me to choose them over my career. I love you guys!! Dianna Campbell, Mark Robinson, Matthew Robinson Elijah Christian, Olak kristen Robinson, Heidi Idler, Sophie idler and Erica Robinson. I wouldn’t trade a trillion dollars for what these kids have brought to my life and taught me about life and love. I learned from the best how to be a mother ❤️ Linda ❤️ and I am lucky to be able to move on from a demanding career to be there for my children and husband. To continue to heal my own heart and be there to see others healed.

Thanks everyone for your support. The best is literally yet to come!!!!!

I’ve got an awesome job working for one of the most amazing, generous employers Jennifer Lynn in a community that I love!!!

What more could anyone ask for?????? #RCexit

Cst Kim Alm

***update. I’m getting lots of messages from currently serving RCMP members struggling with PTSD. Please message. Support is here. Where others have abandoned you and where you feel alone I will not do that to you! I promise. That was the purpose of this post. Full disclosure! No shame!!!!


Call to Action –– Canada-Wide Operational Stress Injuries Survey

Call to Action –– Canada-Wide Operational Stress Injuries Survey
S’il vous plaît, consultez la version française de ce courriel ci-dessous.

Hello All,

A week ago the Canadian Institute for Public Safety Research and Treatment (CIPSRT) released the first national survey to assess operational stress injury (OSI) symptoms for Canadian First Responders and other Public Safety Personnel.

Participating in this anonymous survey will help provide critically-needed information about OSI symptom prevalence (e.g., symptoms of post-traumatic stress disorder, depression, panic) for Canadian First Responders and other Public Safety Personnel. The survey can also assess interactions between stress, symptoms, your family, and your workplace.
Numbers matter. We currently don’t have reliable data on OSI symptom prevalence rates. We are counting on you to participate and encourage others to participate because doing so provides evidence for engaging strategies and allocating resources to support mental health for all Canadian First Responders and other Public Safety Personnel.
Whatever your mental health, your responses will help everyone in need.

Please distribute this e-mail and the attached document to all of your currently serving personnel and encourage them to distribute ensuring all personnel are invited. A subsequent survey for retired members is being planned for distribution as soon as possible.

For more information on the survey and on CIPSRT, please refer to the attached document or visit

A formal invitation to participate in the survey is attached. We sincerely hope you choose to participate, therein supporting yourself and your peers, and allowing us to advocate for appropriate resources to support public safety mental health.

Thank you all again for your ongoing help, support, and patience through this process.

If you have questions or comments please contact Steve Palmer, University of Regina or 306-535-8365

Additional information regarding CIPSRT is available on the website

Appel à l’action –Sondage à travers le Canada sur les traumatismes liés au stress opérationnel


Il y a une semaine L’Institut canadien de recherche et de traitement en sécurité publique (ICRTSP) lancer le premier sondage national pour évaluer les symptômes de traumatismes liés au stress opérationnel (TSO) chez les premiers répondants et les autres membres du personnel de la sécurité publique.

Votre participation à ce sondage anonyme contribuera à fournir des informations importantes sur la prévalence des TSO (symptômes de stress post-traumatique, dépression, anxiété, par exemple) chez les premiers répondants et les autres membres du personnel de la sécurité publique au Canada. Le sondage pourra aussi évaluer la corrélation entre le stress, les symptômes, votre famille et votre travail.
Les chiffres parlent. Nous n’avons aujourd’hui aucune donnée fiable sur le taux de prévalence des TSO. Nous comptons sur vous pour participer et encourager d’autres à participer, car ce faisant, vous apporterez les éléments de preuve nécessaires à établir des stratégies et à attribuer les ressources pour aider la santé mentale de tous les premiers répondants et les autres membres du personnel de la sécurité publique au Canada.
Quelle que soit votre santé mentale, vos réponses aideront tous ceux qui en ont besoin.

Veuillez diffuser ce courriel et les pièces jointes à tous vos employés actuellement en service et encouragez-les à le faire suivre aux autres, afin que tous les membres du personnel soient invités. On planifie distribuer, dès que possible, un sondage ultérieur aux membres du personnel à la retraite.

Pour plus d’informations sur le sondage ou sur l’ICRTSP, veuillez consulter le document ci-joint ou visiter le site

Une invitation officielle à participer au sondage sera envoyée le 1er septembre. Nous espérons sincèrement que vous déciderez d’y participer, pour votre bien et celui de vos pairs, et ainsi nous permettre de faire valoir le besoin d’obtenir les ressources nécessaires pour soutenir la santé mentale en sécurité publique.

Si vous avez des questions ou des commentaires s’il vous plaît contacter Steve Palmer, University of Regina or 306-535-8365

Des informations supplémentaires concernant ICRTSP est disponible sur le site Web
Je vous remercie à nouveau de votre confiance, de votre appui constant et de votre patience tout au long de ce processus.
Je vous remercie sincèrement à l’avance de votre collaboration.

L’équipe ICRTSP

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Our mailing address is:
Collaborative Centre for Justice and Safety
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Regina, Sk S4S 0A2

She is the face, the face of depression

Written by the daughters of 2 retired RCMP officers

She is a mom.
She is a wife.
She is a gram.
She is strong.
She is independent.
She is a hero.
She is a friend.
She is our rock.
She is our best friend.
She is a hard worker.
She is dedicated.
She is passionate.

She worked tirelessly for years, at a job that she was passionate about.
She had (maybe) 6 sick days during her 18 year career.
She was the first to help her coworkers in need.
She was treated disrespectfully by an outfit that she dedicated her heart and work to.
She loved working for and with people of all walks of life, but especially endangered women and children.
She is an advocate for women’s and children’s rights.
She is now retired.

She should be enjoying her retirement.
She is suffering from severe depression.
She is fighting off the darkest of dark thoughts.
She is enduring the most excruciatingly painful days of her life.

She has lost hope.
She has lost her spark.
She has lost her way.
She has lost her light.
She wanted to end the pain.
She felt suicide was the only way.

We are not willing to let this brightest light in our life go.
She is far too precious.
She is far too special.
She is far too valuable (in so many ways).

She is the face, the face of depression.
She is our mom.

Depression doesn’t look like what you would expect. It can affect anyone, even the strongest, brightest, most beautiful people in our lives. We need to do more than just say there is stigma around mental illness. We need to do more than say “I am here to help”. And we need to fight for health resources, for those who aren’t able to fight. We NEED to do better. The alternative is not an option.

September 10, 2016 is annual suicide prevention day.

University of Regina paper reveals more help needed for first responders suffering from PTSD and other traumas

A newly released paper, developed by University of Regina researcher, Dr. Nick Carleton, in partnership with members of the Canadian Institute for Public Safety Research and Treatment (CIPSRT) and supported by the Canadian Association of Police Governance (CAPG), the Paramedic Association of Canada (PAC) and the Canadian Association of Chiefs of Police (CACP), finds that more needs to be done to help Canada’s first responders and other public safety personnel who are dealing with trauma often associated with their work.


Peer Support and Crisis-Focused Psychological Intervention Programs in Canadian First Responders: Blue Paper, evaluates the peer support and psychological intervention programs already being offered to help those who often confront death, violence, and threats to their own lives at work, sometimes on a daily basis.


“We found that there is a drastic need for more research assessing the impact of the programs that are currently offered to our police, paramedics, and fire and rescue personnel,” says Carleton. “Currently there is very little, if any evidence available proving the effectiveness of any specific program. This is harmful to the well-being of our first responders.”


Carleton says his team found that while first responders and other public safety personnel appreciate the programs that are available to them, having evidence-based, consistent programming across the country will provide greater benefits.  


“The mental health of our people is at risk. This year alone, 26 Canadian first responders have taken their own lives. At the current rate this may be the worst year for suicides, surpassing the 40 first responders who died last year,” says Mario Harel, president of CACP.  “This has to change.”


Rob Stephanson, president of CAPG, says the release of the Blue Paper is a first step in a long-term commitment to supporting Canadian first responders and other public safety personnel. “The pending Prevalence Survey being released in September is the critical next step.”


Carleton’s next step is to release a national survey which will help his team gain a better understanding of the impact that work stress and symptoms have on first responders and their families. They aim to create supports for the mental health of all public safety personnel.


“The work of Dr. Carleton and his team sets the stage for the creation of more uniform supports for the mental health of all our public safety personnel,” says Pierre Poirier, executive director of PAC. “The recommendations in the Blue Paper are necessary as the effects of daily traumas put our first responders at risk for psychological challenges, including post-traumatic stress, depression, anxiety, and anger. It’s my hope that the survey will help researchers better understand the impacts this work can have, and move forward in identifying what is required to support the recognition, prevention, intervention and treatment of mental health concerns facing Canadian first responders.”


Access the Blue Paper at:


I am the PTSD Spouse, Part 2


I am the one who started to see glimpses of the old life.

I am the one who drove to every appointment.

I am the one who encouraged you to leave the house.

I am the one who helped you to find a new “normal”.

I am the one who was still there when you found your laughter again.

I was the one who said maybe THAT part isn’t about PTSD, maybe THAT part is something every parent feels some days.

I am the one who walked beside you while you did the hard work.

I am the one who meditates with you.

I am the one who didn’t panic on a bad day.

I am the one who sees you as you are now. A strong brave man who wasn’t afraid to admit he was hurting and faced this demon head on and chooses every day not to let it win!

By Jess

It’s never too late to say Thank You


Thank you Daddy

I keep thinking it’s too late, but remind myself that it’s never too late to say thank you.

You don’t know me, but I am the daughter of a police officer, and reading of the loss of any officer really hit home. I know how important your job is, and can barely fathom how stressful it can be.

While my dad, like most officers, is a strong, masculine, proud man, I can see the tragedies he’s witnessed, hidden behind his blue eyes. I can see the stress lines that map his face, and the exhaustion of his mind and body when he arrives home.

My dad has missed birthdays, Christmas’ and other family gatherings because duty called, like it does for many officers. As a kid I remember being disappointed, but never angry. I was always proud of my dad that was protecting the world. My own personal superman, and I just assumed everyone viewed him that way. Nevertheless, as an adult, I now see that this is not the case.

Some people view police as power hungry, doing injustice, never being in the right place, ruining their families, delivering bad news. Officers moves are scrutinized and publicized. They are torn down by the very same people they show up to help. That’s the thing about police officers. It doesn’t matter how many times they are publicly and maliciously attacked–when you call the police, whether you like/respect them or not, they will be there to help you, your family, your friends and your neighbours in their time of need.

Rarely are officers celebrated and thanked for what they do on a daily basis, nor is it acknowledge the extreme toll their job takes on their mind, body, family and more.

So, I just wanted to say, as someone who has grown up with a behind-the-scenes view, Thank-you.

Thank-you for bravely strapping in for a roller-coaster of a day, every day, prepared to assist and protect your community as best as you can.

Thank-you for missing your sons hockey game, your wife’s birthday, or your daughters play to make sure my family can sleep soundly at night.

Thank-you for compassionately helping people through situations they’d otherwise not know how to navigate, such as death, car accidents, break-ins and assaults.

I am sorry for the horrible destruction and tragedy you see and that you are forced to valiantly carrying that burden with you wherever you go.


A Police Officer was buried today…

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A Police Officer was buried today…
And a piece of our country she swore to protect goes with her
The Canada flag flies at half-mast again today
Her name will be added to a memorial wall
While a young, widower must work to raise their children alone
And spend many long, lonely nights.
Those who worked and loved her will carry a heavy burden
As they struggle to make themselves whole once more
Yes, A Police Officer was buried today…
Maybe it was in your city or not,
She put her life on the line
It happened while we slept in comfort
She answered the call . . . of herself she gave her all,
And because of this a part of Canada has died as well…
Families of the RCMP for PTSD Awareness